Saturday, November 20, 2010

My Dark Passenger

I currently write for a Financial Newsletter at the Company I work for.  Most of it can be pretty dry but I was able to share this story that was given to us in rehab and I just realized that I had not yet shared it with you all.  I hope you all can really think a bit beyond the obvious moral of the legend but realize how the demons we fight inside of ourselves, whether anxiety, depression, alcoholism..is only a small portion of who we are and it is important that we do not let that portion consume our being as it easily can. So here is the story, which is a Native American Legend that actually has several different variations out there but here is the one that I like the most;

 "The Wolves Within"

An old Grandfather said to his grandson, who came to him with anger at a friend who had done him an injustice, "Let me tell you a story.
I too, at times, have felt a great hate for those that have taken so much, with no sorrow for what they do.
But hate wears you down, and does not hurt your enemy. It is like taking poison and wishing your enemy would die. I have struggled with these feelings many times." He continued, "It is as if there are two wolves inside me. One is good and does no harm. He lives in harmony with all around him, and does not take offense when no offense was intended. He will only fight when it is right to do so, and in the right way.
But the other wolf, ah! He is full of anger. The littlest thing will set him into a fit of temper. He fights everyone, all the time, for no reason. He cannot think because his anger and hate are so great. It is helpless anger,for his anger will change nothing.
Sometimes, it is hard to live with these two wolves inside me, for both of them try to dominate my spirit."
The boy looked intently into his Grandfather's eyes and asked, "Which one wins, Grandfather?"
The Grandfather smiled and quietly said, "The one I feed."


Is that true or what?  My own worst enemy is by far myself and a dark part of me so badly wants me to fail and to self destruct...even though I have starved this side of me for some time now it is still there just waiting to be fed.  I am quoting "Dexter" but it is my Dark Passenger.  So to end this post with a positive affirmation or the law of attraction (please read "The Secret" or at least my blog titled "Positive Affirmations" if you have not already done so) I am going to try and do this in every post as it will be a good way for myself to never lose sight of this tool at my disposal.

I am grateful that the portion of myself I am going to nurture today is the portion of me that wants to succeed and to strive to improve who I am.  I am grateful to feel calm and that I will have a fruitful and anxiety free day.

Thank you my friends  for reading and as always I hope there is something here that you found helpful.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You are doing a great job.....Maybe helping others through your writing is one of your purposes in life. You should write a book as well as blog...